Y’all, it’s my birthday! I’m 26! I’m still here! Still alive! Still loving and learning, blessed and beautiful 💅🏾 (and who knows for how long really, so enjoy me while i last)
We’re finishing up another Leo season, baby. Leo season is my mf season. My time to shine. My sun, my heart, my spirit, my fire. I think we all feel the fire when leo season comes around. It’s fixed, immovable, there’s no getting around it, no, there’s only dancing around it. Hence Summer Rennaisance, my leo szn soundtrack, for your grooving pleasure.
And this time it was so PERSONAL. It feels especially personal, still, as Saturn currently opposes my sun, making every move, every meeting, just a bit harder than it has to be…and the square to the nodes isn’t so hot either, but it’s all dynamic, for sure! That’s all astro speak for the tangible and existential crises I’m moving through right now during this here Leo season, friends. Gather round for just a taste if you’d like.
Y’all, I have a squatter. A whole squatter in my apartment. A whole I’m not leaving motherfucker who has, due to the bizarre laws of the lands in Berlin, left ME, the whole and only resident of this apartment, without a home. He has my furniture, my clothes, my mf dishes, and he’s changed my mf locks too. After all this time of housing insecurity, I finally return to the only home I’ve ever secured for me alone…to find that this home has been taken by some dude I thought I could trust at LEAST not to do something absolutely heinous, and I don’t actually have a home to return to at all. Literally which one of y’all has cursed me, bc you can let up now, like I get it.
PLUS, I brought Erica with me to enjoy some stability, annnnnd, yeah. None of that here.
And somehow this is allowed until I successfully sue him. In the courts! So I had to get a lawyer, and we all know lawyers are a million dollars! (more like several hundred so far, but still, who am I, King Louis XIV?!) This shit is ridiculous! And I could use some help, friends. I’ve been covering Erica’s costs too, and this having a dependent thing—while rewarding and beautiful—is not sustainable, I don’t know how these parents are just out here are doing that shit 😭😭
We’ve been getting by :) we’re getting so good at communing with our angels, praying for guidance, releasing to the chaos, choosing peace over bullshit. letting what will be, BE. It’s not been the easiest journey, and there have been quite a few terrifying moments, but it’s a journey that matters. A revelatory time about who to trust, when to trust myself, when to build, how to build, how to communicate, when to rest, when to fight, when to recognize there is more to life. And there have been so many earthbound angels balancing out the assholes 🥰
This all is still ongoing, so if you’d like to be an angel toooo, monetary assistance (vmo is kaydarling111 🙌🏾) , offers of empty spaces in quiet places around the world where I can just have some Peace in the meantime (the month of October, for instance? anyone?), advice and words of affirmation, writing gigssssss, ur prayers, all welcome, loves.
Alsooooo book! a! reading! with! me!! I’m still a well of astro knowledge, and I am in surprisingly spiritual spirits throughout all of this, it’s giving saint, it’s giving wisdom, it’s giving lemme read you with love
It’s giving lemme show you how to heal your own spirit with the salve of cosmic knowing 💫
Plus, Erica has taken a step back from assisting me with one-on-ones to focus on our upcoming multi-week counseling program 🥳, so I’m able to lower my prices significantly! So if you weren’t booking bc of ze cash, or you’ve been saving up to book a reading, that’s much easier now! The new sliding scale has been lowered to $57-222 and as always,
sessions are pay-whatever-you-can for Black and (non-white, obv) Indigenous people!!
I started all new session types that I’m pumped about, and all sessions under $100 will now be no-prep readings. Cold readings! For those who trust in the immediacy of my astro-brilliance and pattern finding, planetary narrative abilities. Also, i’m still so Virgo-y, so “no-prep” means that instead of taking 5+ hours to analyze u, I’ll just look over your chart and intake form about an hour before our sesh.
SO, as I said, this season has been a doozy. I know that hasn’t just been for me. The sky weather has been turbulent! It’s a universally hectic time, and things are feeling very obviously out-of-whack.
What is usually super cool about the time/place/energy of Leo is that this where we really start practicing with self-awareness. Which, as a Leo, I value highly, but it can be a bit uncomfy for others. And when Leo is getting all sorts of pulls and tugs from other signs, we can feel almost affronted with our own and others’ self-awareness, and the lack thereof, too.
We’re called to consider that self-awareness is still mighty subjective. We are all unreliable narrators of our own experience, but that doesn’t necessarily mean anyone else gets us any better. Regardless of how much self-analyzing you’re out here doing (still, very valuable stuff), there are limits on our own self-definition given that we’re constantly being perceived by others, compared to others, and, most importantly, relating to others.
You can hide from the discomfort and dissonance in this all you want, but that shit will fiiiiind you. And that’s on Saturn.
This Saturn in Aquarius opposition reminds us that we’re still trapped within the bounds of a social order. We may be feeling confined in our interdependence, in how we’re affected by one another all the time, and not just our moods or even our senses of safety, but like one another affects our relationships to time itself. One another literally dictates how long we spend on this Earth. Our lives are linked, and we have no choice but to trust one another to act with just a modicum of integrity in every moment. In kind, we are responsible to far more than merely ourselves. This is a -society- bro.
That’s huge and feels intense when also engaging with these life-and-death-involved Taurus-Scorpio lunar nodes.
So, Leo, the perfect fire sign, more generally,
is the hearth of the zodiac
the heart, which holds the sun and the moon’s meeting,
where Cancer meets Leo,
is the point where the life force meets the self, no?
We’re dealing with the SUN, that which sustains all life
consistent, joyous, mighty, absolutely fucking necessary
Leo as the fire we might dance around, singing, laughing, drumming
an opportunity for bravery, leo is the hero of the story,
the angel who likes to party, the villain with the heart of gold
the star of the show, because obviously…
radical honesty, authenticity, integrity as the life goal
Leo asks WHO the FUCK are YOU?? (In the nicest way.)
Leo is where we start seeing ourselves as social beings with inherent missions to cultivate relationships of our own. Not just to learn from others, as in Gemini, and not just with those we’re born into caring for, as with Cancer, but in LEO we choose to act in conjunction with others, to create and date and find joy and have FUN with others. Leo is where we explore sociability, where we position ourselves as part of a group, where we experiment with building a lil community or two or three, where we ask for others to enter our orbit and see where we fit into the solar systems of others. and WHO these people are in our community matters….like so much. It’s no joke. Leo lesson number 2? or 5? idk, but your CREW is of the utmost importance. Be open of course, but you don’t want any exploding stars in your solar system, bc those bitches just might blow you all up 😮 Discernment, babes. Be proud of your pride, or keep it moving.
The season is a reminder that we’re all just little suns, bbs. Little bouncing balls of energy and matter and divinity, with the ability to shine our light and love wherever we decide. As Bey said, one of ONE, UNIQUE bitch. Leo reminds us what a gift we are to this world, and how we WANT to be a gift to this world, we WANT to help things to grow and facilitate joy and lavish in love.
Like really is anything better than lavishing in love?
Cancer gets abstract and watery, and in Leo, we get physical. Here we deal with awareness, with what is known and seen, what can be touched and enjoyed. We engage with a warm, soothing heat. A fire we fall asleep alongside knowing it will keep us cozy all night long. The burst of heart energy we enjoy when we like someone a whole lot and we just want to lean into it, that melty, hot-to-touch feeling. In Leo, we BASK, loves. Leo is the stove that cooks the food Cancer prepares. That love on-top-of love, that seal-the-deal, no-holds-barred kind of shit.
Because now that we’ve learned how to care in Cancer, we must learn how to FEEEL
The lesson in Leo is to internalize that it is absolutely OKAY to FEEL STRONGLY sometimes, that actually sometimes it helps other people FEEL too. (IF we intentionally make space for THEIR feelings as well…a second Leo lesson.)
These FEELINGS, that MATTER so much, oh, sure, some may call them DRAMATIC, but maybe those people don’t yet UNDERSTAND that life’s a stage, and drama is REAL.
If you have a COMPLEX with FEELING, then INVESTIGATE that, it’s likely rooted in your CHILDHOOD, and that child self ooooooooo they wanna FEEL, my love, I just know it. Either everything they were denied from feeling, or even everything they were allowed to feel then but are no longer to now. And to the bad bitches who never stopped feeling everything, take the lead now and show us all how its done.
Another of my Leo (+ Virgo moon) life lessons is that when you don’t create the drama yourself, the drama comes to you, and now you are but a character in someone else’s show. No control, no script, no idea what’s going to happen next, simply along for the ride. When the set is set by the Universe herself that’s one thing, but to wake up and realize that you’re playing in someone else’s story is waking into a nightmare. Leo is an active energy, liking to act upon a scene.
Leos, in Leo, we must ask ourselves what it means to -be-. Not generally, but as you. What does it mean to be you, and to know that being you is different than any other being them. In Leo, we create ourselves, we find a passion 4 fashion-ing ourselves out of all that we’ve gathered in the zodiac wheel thus far: who we come from, who we’ve watched and witnessed, what we know to be true, what our skills are, how we like to move, what we look like, what this all means.
For everyone, this energy helps us locate what makes us happy. What all makes life worth living? What lights your fire? Did you find out over these last weeks? Did you dive into pleasure at all? Did you take a leap of faith towards love? Did you celebrate your vitality, in whatever phase it’s in? Did you lie in bed for hours with the sun streaming in or lay out in the grass soaking up the rays? Did you embrace your whole being and cheer for your besties to do so as well? Did you make art?? Throw some ass??? Charm someone super hot? Were you generous, love? Generous with your love? Did you do what you could to make someone smile?? Did you play with a small child? Did you honor your integrity and decide to be the best possible version of yourself at all costs??????? Well, you still can. Leo season 4ever.
<3 kay
This Leo season held a lot of complication, but I also returned to activities I love to do like painting and reading. There were also definitely some silly dance parties around the proverbial fire :) Appreciate your perspective on Leo <3