commencing phase 2

what a blessing, and a valiant fight, to have made it here

i’ve been really feeling some don’t kill yourself before your saturn return vibes, as this seventh(!) reflection (which gets a lil astro jargon-y as a heads up) reminded me just how genuinely The Saturn Return activates a consequential PHASE 2 in life. Since it has exacted, I’ve felt genuine space (and responsibility) open up for things to be thematically different in these next 30 years. My foundation is now three entire decades of my own, rather than the not-even-three decades each of a foundation that my parents welcomed me in with, and the fracturing that set in before even the first Saturn square.

with the Martian influence upon Saturn, this time gets to be grounded in my own motivation, my own desires. Perhaps that’s why i’ve always felt off about the Buddhist denouncement of desire. With a Mars-guided Saturn, nothing’s going down, nor getting real, nor lasting, without desire. Getting serious about my motivations—after all this exploring, after getting curious with folks from all around the world and a thousand different positionalities, after making temporary homes in other people’s desires, after a slew of impulses, whims, and the consequences within—now, i’m that much closer to rooting into something solid, landing on my personal launchpad of raison d’etre.

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